FLESH: PAST INSPIRATIONS / PRESENT MANIFESTATIONS

"FLESH"

||: eat it fuck it kill it - eat it fuck it kill it - eat it fuck it kill it - can I? :||

can I eat it?
should I kill it?
and how -
do I fuck it?
my lord -

I'm begging you
consciousness is too much to be responsible for
please release me, my lord
(epic guitar solo)
but everything's connected
my lord!
so cut the bullshit
cut the bullshit, my friend
cause everything's connected
my lord!
so cut the bullshit
cut the bullshit, my friends

with your
eat it fuck it kill it
eat it fuck it kill it
eat it fuck it kill it
IT'S MINE

My Flesh - My Flesh - My Flesh
come on eat it, fuck it, kill it!

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Sketch_Pinei Pinao (the unwinding song)

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Sketch_Malala (for Malala Yousufzai)

keep fighting warrior
we are with you
and together we are strong

you give us courage to dig deeper
to speak louder

every human has the right to education.

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ever since I learned about Malala Yousufzai 4 days ago, I can't stop thinking about her....constantly.....a warrior, an inspiration....she is still alive, but in critical condition...I sing to her everyday, focusing on recovery, and thanking her for her strength. this sketch was inspired by her and will be developed into something more.

Knowledge is infinite and should never be denied.
"Genius without education is like silver in the mine" (benjamin franklin)

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Sketch_Cut Throat

CRYSTAL BETH ARCHIVE

from a performance this past May - with the most awesome WEREBEARCAT (part werewolf, part carebear, part thundercat...need I say more...check them out on the interwebs)

CRYSTAL BETH SOLO SOLO

I did my first evening of solo music this past Friday....not the first time performing solo obviously, but the first time that was all there was for the evening.

It was a very somber evening - there was a darkness and heaviness in the air and deeply with people...but it made for a very intimate evening of exchange.

Beauty comes in many forms.
Healing comes in many forms.

Thank you for so many opportunities for both.

CRYSTAL BETH - BAD FOR JAZZ

Presented by Bad for Jazz, Crystal Beth did a 50 min set on Hollow Earth Radio!

I think I'm going to use it as the first Crystal Beth recording for sale...there were some problems, you know, songs I started to fast or little things like that, but overall I felt it was my strongest solo set yet...it was the first true solo synthesis of my improvised and compositional personas and I got totally swept away in the music - FINALLY!

No nerves, no self abuse, no fear...just pure CRYSTAL BETH!!!

Doing a solo set is hard work, keeping the energy up and moving as a single person is really something intense....but after a year and a half of baby steps I finally feel confident enough to start booking the project on bills with other bands.

(Thank you Bad for Jazz for the opportunity and invitation to do whatever I wanted! Artistic freedom makes for artistic bliss!)

CRYSTAL BETH'S FIRST CLUB SET

After a year and 3 months of performances at salon parties, cafes, and galleries I was ready to take Crystal Beth into the club environment....it's a very different experience to do a solo performance in a club setting, it is a very uncontrolled environment and a bigger room to fill up both sonically and energetically, but I felt like it was time, and having the invitation to do it at Wayne Horvitz's new club, the Royal Room, seemed like a perfect fit and perfect timing...SO I DID IT!!!!

I dedicated this set to the members of Kultur Shock, who in 2009 jerked me back from the throngs of sublimating my personal artistic mission...plans were in the works for me to move to Chicago to get a masters degree in arts policy when I got hired to go on tour with Kultur Shock to Russia - through Shock therapy I empirically realized the greatest contribution I could make to the world was to perpetuate MY most authentic self (not just the authentic self of others) truly and unabashedly....I came home from Russia and changed the structure of my entire life to align with this true objective, and I continue that adventure daily...THANK YOU KULTUR SHOCK


Crystal Beth Live at the Royal Room
December 19, 2011

Djelem, Djelem
Invocation & Thanks
Rally
Ghost
Siberian Delirium
Buddhas & the Bitches
Doshi Dei

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Sketch_Push Through




(letting release rituals be seen)

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CRYSTAL BETH
IMPROVISATION



(dear self - please find better location for camera placement)

CRYSTAL BETH'S FIRST TIME

Losing my Crystal Beth virginity....this was August 2010...
surrounded by friends I braved into the scariest performance incarnation I have yet to encounter - the solo voice set...

Playing clarinet for 200,000 people - no problem.
Singing alone for 10 - scariest shit ever.



BUDDHAS & THE BITCHES

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SKETCH_RALLY

(a post nap Crystal Beth session)

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SKETCH_IT COMES FROM INSIDE

(a post nap Crystal Beth session)

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SKETCH_MOHAI RITUAL
Crystal Beth



"Mohai is my heart. Mohai is your heart. Mohai is our collective heart. This separation is an illusion. Mohai is my heart - it is your heart - it is our collective heart. We are one....can you feel Mohai"

CRYSTAL BETH - NEW MOON

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